I can hardly believe it's been so long already! That's right, it was one month ago today that Dad left for the streets of heaven.Man, I sure miss him!
I still expect to see him walk through the front doors at the office to visit at any minute. Or see his smiling face when I walk into Rotary (sorry, fellow Rotarians, for my infrequent attendance lately... that's still a hard place for me to be).
I miss him so much!
When my phone rings, I think it might be Dad calling from the mall, where he's found a great deal on something none of us needs - but he's so excited by the price he just had to buy it (maybe even 2 of them).
Gosh, I miss my Dad!
And then it hits me... AGAIN! He's gone! No longer can I hear the familiar calming sounds of his voice. No more can I wrap my arms around him & feel the saftey and love in his embrace.
By the way, have I mentioned how much I miss him?
His voice; his hugs & kisses; the smell of his cologne; heck - I'd even settle for a few e-mails, jokes or just one of his songs. A little To God be the Glory! or Amazing Grace or how about one more verse of Happy Birthday.
I know that he's in, as they always say, "a much better place"! He's not hurting, or sad, or missing anything or anyone. He's worshipping at a level that makes worshipping here on earth seem like taking a nap, I'm sure.
But me? I just miss him!
Will it get easier? With time, we know it will. For now... a month has felt both like forever and like nothing more than a blink in time. The moments fly by, yet time seems to also stand still.
I'm sooo happy for Dad. He's made it to his final destination. He fought the good fight & won the battle! I rejoice in his victory!! The saying 'the grass is always greener' on the other side holds knew meaning for me now. Dad found that greener grass; the golden streets; the bluest skies!
Can you imagine how HUGE his smile must be?
Keep smiling, Dad!
I'll close with the words Ron Shepherd spoke as he left Dad's bedside 32 days ago (the day before his passing)...
"See you another day!"
Johnny:)
By the way, they also always say it's harder for those left behind. I definitely agree with that one! Those left behind to miss him...
and I DO MISS HIM!
Then again, maybe I've said that already?